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Tuesday

Miller Creek (2004)


Miller Creek (2004)





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Miller
Creek

by
Leicester Kyle


sketches by Joel Bolton





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Preface


On the Buller Coal Plateaux mining, both underground and open cast, has disturbed large upland territories, and has released into the waterways chemicals and minerals which would otherwise stay locked in the rock.

Most of the creeks and larger rivers that have the Plateaux for catchment, are badly damaged by these poisons, some to the point of being unable to hold any life.

Given time, and good management, some of these creeks are able to self-heal to some degree. This is the story of one of these waterways, Miller Creek, which flows from out of the Old Dip mine, through Millerton, at the Plateaux’s northern edge.

Leicester Kyle,

Millerton, Buller. 2004.





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Road and River


We drive on by
and don’t stop to consider
the situation:

does the road cross over
or does the water flow under?

The one sees ahead
the other looks up.

Both have courses
and both have flow,

and each has a glimpse
and thinks nothing of
the other.

The road does a work
of passage and supply,
the creek has the job
of drainage to do,
and has served
for ages,
has made a bed of its own,
a source and a mouth.

It shouldn’t need again
to be made or mended;
it’s best left alone
to look after itself;

if provoked
it will run wild.





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When I came to move into my newly-bought house it was an autumn morning.

There was mist, a mild sun behind it, and a drift of slight rain.

Then the day cleared, and quite suddenly the moors were there,

Rising from behind the house in ridge rock and valley

To a red-edged escarpment at the top, and everywhere a luxuriance of growth:

Rata yellow pine and rimu in the valleys, with here and there a patch of beech,

And out on the moors (that many think so barren) a great wealth of species, and always something new.

To the west the sea, and we at the top of the cliff.

To the north a long bright coast, the Tasman Peaks behind it.

There was a sound of water everywhere, and after I had settled in I went to look for the stream,

Which I found at the bottom of the garden, in a gorge that the trees meet over.

On the brink there’s a rough path; it cuts down a cliff to the glen,

In which I now grow ferns, and rare plants from the moors.

The bush is of kamahi and toro, with rata in rocky banks at the water’s edge.

There’s neopanax, totara, filmy ferns and moss.

Deep leaf debris lies in drifts.





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Here the river enters in a natural flume, spilling out in a fall,

To flow past relics of an industrial past — dressed stone banks, a fallen bridge, a concrete ruin,

On a smooth sandstone bed.

The strata tilt down to the south, biting the creek to the opposite bank

And leaving me a narrow ledge by which I can go upstream,

Above the pool, to prospect.

There are always birds — tuis, bell-birds, fantails, finches, and kereru;

A kea will fly over now and then, a kiwi snuffle through, a fern-bird shake a bush to tease the dog,

And there are sparrows blackbirds waxeyes.

All these come and go, but from the creek I’m inseparable — I wake to it, sleep and write with it, and worry when it roars,

Though it’s not an unruly water.

The sound of it is through my house, in every shed and garden,

It’s in my soul is part of me we hardly sleep apart.

As some have traffic, others sea, a teacher — children playing,

So this is the manuscript of my life I can’t long live without.

In my mind it’s a brightness, dappled light, sun on wet rock, leaves, clear thought and purpose and a washing away.



By living here I purify.

Should the creek be muddied I’d despair,

Now it’s clean, so clean that if it were still it could not be seen.


A thin moss begins at the water; above that there’s a blue-green grass.

Where there’s ground, coprosmas grow, kamahi pungas and toro.

Here and there a grass-tree weeps but nothing touches the water.

The bush moved here when the mine closed down and the houses were taken away;

Now it’s all getting back to what it was.

Animals stay out of sight — stick-insects wetas worms and snails, transparent slugs and spiders.

I’ve seen a bat in a light at dusk, and there are rats,

No sandflies though because of the stream, for nothing touches the water.

We learn from living things, uncomfortably;

Perhaps that’s why we fell burn and hunt, to evade the lesson,

For in the shape of a leaf, of a scent, the notes of a bird, the flight of a moth

We define ourselves against the rest of the world and that against us,

That we too have shape,





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And we make sound, progress, grow conscious.

Not knowing this, we colour the trees with sentiment and are ignorant,

Are helpless too, with no place of our own to grow in.

There are seasonal things in the bush — there are orchids: corybas, greenhoods, and caladenias in crowds.

In the autumn toadstools come — pink yellow green blue and red, some rarely, in dark places.

There’s much of Millerton now hidden in the bush, an invisible city;

As it once was milled and built from the bush, so the trees are now growing to cover its past.

In floods a relic comes washing down the creek: a brick or two, a post of yellow pine, some artefact of iron made for a forgotten end;

And there’s more of the past upstream —

A deserted house with its back to the water,

A hanging rail, a post or two, some sockets in the sandstone bed.

The railway to the Old Dip mine once paralleled the stream, and sometimes crossed it,

And there were other bridges:

To the surgery on the southern bank and Granny Methven’s store,

Then on the north, the Post.



From here on Miller Creek’s untroubled by the town.

There’s the swimming hole, unused in these de-populated times,

And a small bridge for a grassy road that goes to a holiday house,

And to the steps to the ruins.

Its passage through the Basin is swift on a clean bed.

There’s more rimu in the bush on the banks, some lancewoods,

And a manuka bog with sphagnum where the creek runs close to the lake,

A brightly lighted silent space, and still.

It may be a while before you note that the river banks grow little.

At their tops there’s all you might expect, but where the water touches the green

There’s one moss at the water’s edge, one grass, and further in one or two ferns,

But not the usual vibrancy nor elemental joy where earth and water meet.

Nor is there life in the creek, no koura nor eels nor native trout nor any other fish.

This lovely bright water is dead.





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Here, at the back of the Basin, Miller Creek becomes an alpine stream;

Its gradient sharply increases, it’s a cataract on the moors.

You imagine yourself in the alps, amongst catastrophe:

Great blocks of rock have slid from the top and split and wait to tumble further.

Some carry turf as vegetable hats.

Through these the creek leaps in such a rapid fall

That wherever you stand at the edge to look it’s lost to sight.

A fair way up this ravine, not much below the topmost fall

Some ratas cover a tunnel

Which is blocked by timber and rock, but a strong stream finds its way out.

It’s a powerful place, overhung by precipice and the failure of human endeavour.

There are some rusted rails about, some sleepers and old iron.

Rail once spanned the gorge to a mine on the other side,

But there has been a great collapse into the creek, raising it and heightening its fall.

With a steady head and careful grip you can clamber the opposite face, by cliff and crack,

Noting the plants on this exposed and broken rock — dracophyllums, snowberries, and ferns in the crevasses.



You can cut back, once at the top, to a point above the fall,

Where the stream flows in a simple bed, its banks tree-edged, tranquil and ready to please.

There are gentians here, celmisias on the flats, white epacris, rushes, and manuka.

At the upper end there’s the gorge again, bush and boulders,

To mark the plateau’s outer edge, the escarpment.

The way in, if you can find it, is a flat run of old rail,

But this faint track soon peters out in scrub slip-scars and shattered cliff.

By then you’re confined by the gorge, and clamber upstream within the available space.

The scrub is still kamahi, with toro quintinia broadleaf beech and coprosma of several sorts.

There are dwarf dracophyllums, and a small manuka that grows as a mat on sand-banks by the stream.

There is gahnia, flax and sphagnum, smashed sleepers and worn rails.

The rocks are immense with chasms between,

The cliffs overhang and look perilous.

But there’s nothing to stop you until the end, at a precipice of coal.

Miller Creek flows quickly out from a tunnel at the foot of this face,

Out from its blackness, down a couple of steps, and into the ravine.





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There are sand-drifts burnt stone and mine props.

Above, at the top of the cliff, two arid valleys hang,

Their catchments captured by the mines below.

The angular overhangs overshadow.

Seepages drip in the wind from the tunnel mouth.

There’s a smell of soot, and you think of gas.

Here is human failure, desolate in the wild.

A tunnel once given to coal is now to a stream that it’s taken and killed.

Though as it flows it’s brightened by life, this water itself gives none.





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Spring


Spring is the longest season. It begins in August with the first touch of growth, the flowering of the coprosmas, and a noticeable warming of the sun, and it lasts until November.

Usually, these four months are long wet dark and cold. It is the wettest time of the year; there can be 500mm or more of rain in any one month, and fog can persist for days. Fine days are fairly frequent, but dark ones much more so.

It is in spring that we have most of our storms, of hail sleet and thunder, in alarming squalls which roar blackly out of the fog and threaten destruction. The house leaks, windows ooze, water lies or runs wherever it can, and mould does well. If you’re disposed to any sort of illness, now’s the time you have it, especially those of a neurotic kind.

Generally in Buller our rain falls at night, but in this season that rule is ignored and it rains whenever it can; There’s no such thing as a dry cloud. October is the climax, the month of wildness, and quite suddenly, at its end, the weather eases, sometimes abruptly into comparative drought. Most usually the unsettled conditions drag on into December, warming and drying appreciably but still decidedly wet, and intent on delivering our annual average of three metres of rain.

Now and then, to everyone’s joy, summer comes early, and November ushers it in from the very first week. Lawns can be mown, firewood dries, the garden can be planted again. You meet people in the street, and news starts to flow.

Through it all the bush has grown. The greenhoods have flowers, and the caladenias, clematis, the scented bush daisy, and the strange tropical-looking Parkinson’s rata. Birds nest, and the lesser animals have somehow survived. The Millerton snail, which has been restless for the last month or two, settles down, stops crossing the road, and isn’t seen for another year. Our world, now we can see it, is just as it should be, and grows on into summer as it has year after year.





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Summer


Summer never lasts long enough. Down at the coast it does, and by the time it dies people long for cooler weather. Up here it can be relied upon to start by the middle of January, with temperatures over 20deg. four or five times in the season. Now and then it starts at the beginning of November, and this gives us four good months for seasonal work and recreation.

It is a comfortable time of the year, sunny with plenty of good night rains, and the bush grows tremendously, especially the pungas, which get battered about in the winter, and try to make good in this temperate weather.

Rainless spells rarely last for more than three weeks, and true droughts are very rare. Even one fine week is enough to dry the bush and raise a fear of fire, especially from the Burning Mine which is over the hill to the east, whose fire can be blown into the rushes and scrub by a dry wind, and from there spread further.

From late on a fine morning a sea breeze cools the day, and also might raise cloud on the tops with a shower or two, and mist at night. These can come quickly.

The season is used for work on the house — painting, waterproofing, and repairs, and on the grounds. The vegetable garden prospers from January on, being dry enough to work then and more insect-free. Fruit rarely sets on the trees because of the wet spring.

And the birds are about, especially when the rata flowers: the tuis return and sing in the tree-tops when the wind blows, fern-birds come into the town, young weka look for a place to live. Pigeons arrive when the broom flowers, and bell-birds are always with us.

We have the two species of summer rata — the southern and the northern, and at the end of the season the climbing white rata blooms. Around the very beginning of the year, in more open places and under manuka, the glorious blue sun-orchid blooms, and in march the hanging winika , and the easter orchid to add its scent to those others of the bush. Montbretia, belladonna, and the tiger lily bring the summer near its end.





Autumn


Autumn drifts in imperceptibly, and leaves in the same style. There are bumps in its length; near the beginning there may be spells of still golden days, and there is the odd cold snap, most usual near Easter. Recoveries that follow these are never to the former state of warmth.

March is inclined to be mild and dry, and is fruitful, for the blackberries ripen (both the cutleaf and the common), the toro berries are purple for the pigeons, and the coprosmas are bright orange. At the side of the roads the kaffir lilies flower.

April is more significant: the poplars that have colonised the disappeared roads turn yellow, then slide into gold in May. There is often bitter weather near Easter, with a good deal of rain, and the toadstools appear with the wet—red mostly, but also green yellow and brown. A large edible brown mushroom grows in the grass verges near the poplars. There’s a black toadstool too, and another white and ragged like a carnation.

The first half of May belongs to Autumn, the latter half to Winter, with hail and sleet, and snow in the ranges. In early June there may be a brief recovery, for the ground hasn’t yet got thoroughly chilled, nor the house. The first half of June can be quite benign, but then the cold sets in. As a reminder of past comfort and a hint of the future, the shining rata begins to flower.

In fine weather, Autumn brings its own peace; the sky is distant, horizons have light behind them, and there are scents from the south as night closes in, with a whiff of Antarctica.

It is a directive time of the year, with power, and unless we do as it says—gather in and prepare to close against the hostile months ahead—we will pay for our negligence.





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Winter


Winter comes slowly. There’s a cold snap at the end of May, when the winter rata flowers; it’s often stormy and with sleet, but the ground’s still warm, and the house. June is quite sunny until half way through, then the season starts to grip, our whole world is saturated, the hard frosts begin.

Or might do so. In some winters the weather is so unsettled there are only the lightest of frosts, and air movement at night from the high plateau to the coast allows freezing in the hollows only.

Now and then, however, this temperate pattern fails, the air stills, clouds evaporate, and the weather doesn’t move for a week or two. Icicles hang on the mossy banks and grow metres long. The frost accumulates until it’s like snow, and the road grows dangerous. In the hollows, where the cold air ponds, the soil freezes so deeply that trees die — rimu and kamahi in particular, but manuka too.

In such conditions it’s hard to run a house; the water stops running and the house is chilled in every part.

Snowfalls are rare, but snow is usually seen in a winter, driving in a southerly from over the hills, or in the hail. It’s often close, and when it comes floats in whisps across the moor, curling in the wind, and lies in thin white patches where it’s open in the bush. Higher on the plateau it quite frequently lies.

July is winter’s depth; the clothes the curtains and everything else in the house is cold and damp. Quite soon, in August, some signs of spring begin to show: birds busy themselves, ground orchids start to shoot, and the pungas unfurl new fronds. It rains all the time, and seems even colder. Strength to endure falters.






Published by Heteropholis Press

Further copies may be obtained from:
P.O. Box 367, Westport, Buller, New Zealand.





© Leicester Kyle, 2004



Monday

Living at a Bad Address (2004)






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LIVING AT A BAD ADDRESS


A Christmas Book


From

Leicester Kyle


Here are a few of my favourite poems from 2004. I don't think any of them have been published; they're not the sort of poems that suit literary journals and are, most of them, written from out of my own experiences and for my own purposes. I hope you enjoy them.





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ON THE EPISTLE


This is a passage from a sermon by Meister Eckhardt, who preached it somewhere around 1320. It is so imaginative, accurate, and so nearly impudent that it captivates me, and I arranged (and slightly edited) it into this poem.





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On the Epistle According To the
Dominican Mass

(Deus pacis dilectionis erit vobiscum)


Princes
who desire
to reserve accommodation at inns

are accustomed
to send messengers on ahead
to make the reservations

These greet the innkeepers
extol their masters
and give assurance

so that their masters
may be honourably
received


This is to be seen
in the Advent
of the Word:

The Angel
came to Mary
and said:

Hail,
thou that art full of grace,
the lord be with thee


and so received
the best accommodation
in the world.





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MY FATEFUL HOUSE


Calliope is the goddess (or 'muse') of epic poetry , and it might seem a coincidence that this house I bought turned out to be in a street named after her. It's no coincidence that I like being in it.





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My Fateful House

They sold it as in Gallipoli St
but it’s Calliope
which they couldn’t say
nor spell

so I’m a poet now
and not a veteran

My life’s gone out of knowing

I thought I knew the necessary
and was to age
as is the custom
out of sight

but now I have to write
and look to see

for I know
but a scrap
a page or two
from the book

and have seen no more
than the kitchen yard
where roses bloom
at the gate





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THE TOWN


Millerton became a bad address when the mine closed down in the 1960s; many of the houses were removed. Those left, including the pubs and the school, became inhabited by hippies. It is much quieter now. About thirty houses remain, hidden in the gathering bush, and there's a population of about forty people.





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The Town

This town has infirmities

She’s old
and she’s poor

She hasn’t the will for treatment
nor the wealth

She doesn’t know what’s wrong with her
she doesn’t like the pain
so she palliates
and hides in the bush

Her past is not a proud one
and she’s never been a looker
but she’s lived
and still lives
at one hundred and ten
gazing out dreamily over the sea

Her past she’s hidden in the trees
in case there’s something to hide

It’s a tale of small heroics
and she’s unconfident

If you find her
you might not like what you see
for age is only noticed
when it’s painted.





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AT SEVENTY


I'm anticipating, as I'm not seventy yet, but this little poem is making the point that growing older is not necessarily disappointing or unpleasant.





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At Seventy

They didn’t say
it would be like this —
that winter would be beautiful.
They spoke a lot of labour,
and the cold,
of the loneliness
of the old.

They didn’t remember the company,
and the clarity
of the light;

the days are long,
but the sun still rises,
and there’s fuel
for the fire at night.





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SYLLABLES


My dog Red, a Millerton mongrel, has been my close companion of the last four years. He knows me so well that we tell each other a great deal with not a word said.





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Syllables

Words of one
as children use
on wet days

words of two
by adolescents
for anger

words of three
by adults
to cogitate

or longer still
in rhetoric

or dense
in philosophy

but wordless
by my dog
whose speaking eyes
and touching tongue tell all
in conversation





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SNOW AFTER RAIN


During this last August the weather gave us a tough time; for most of the month we lived defensively, battered and close to zero. Then, on the morning of the last Sunday, we woke to a light fall of snow. Everything changed.





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Snow After Rain


The storms are a weight

they press from the side
and crush from above
with hail and gale

intent
like enemy
to shatter and remove

they spring
by surprise
at night

they mount
one storm on another

and crescendo
at 2.0
to awake

the lightning threatens instruments
the torrents take the road
there's no sleep
nor peace

until today
when there was snow
then sun upon the snow

clear skies and a drying world

and still
at the last
as if this is the end of it





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PROMENA


Every now and then a word is dragged out of the word bank (where it's been in storage for a time) and put to a more public use. Earlier this year, in the course of Solid Energy's application for a resource consent, this word PROMENA was pushed into my notice. I was interested enough to turn to the dictionary and, from it, to assemble this.





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Promena


pro
before -, in front of -

mena, menae —
small sea fish
Promena
small things before

the lesser
at the front
for courtesy

‘without whose help’
‘special thanks’
‘I particularly’

Errata
Prefaces
Notes etc.

to clear
the way
of prey

for the big fish

Promena
1 sing. pres. imp. act:
(you) GO!
in Latin





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LETTERS FROM HOME


Using e-mail has made me look more closely at the nature of correspondence. E-mail leaves out a lot of the more subtle aspects of communication, particularly nuances, while letters can convey too much. From out of these thoughts this diversion emerged.





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Letters From Home


1.Jim drove through the video shop — in one window, out the other. You have to take a stand, he says. We expect he’ll go to counselling.
2.They put Is on to lithium, and her hair’s falling out. She says she had too much of it but it’s getting into everything. We think it’s psychiatric but the doctor says keep out of the sun.
3.Cess woke up in the blackberry again. This time he’s got a bruise on the knee and doesn’t know where it’s come from.
4.It’s rained a lot and flooded the sceptic tank. Nev’s tried to pump it out but it gets blocked. Gloria says it’ll dry up soon but that’s only hope.
5.The money’s holding out alright. Cess is on the benefit now and that covers the food. Roxy makes a bit from her panel-beating, and Uncle Sim’s board’s a help. We’re not paying the rates.
6.You can have some if you want it, and we go without.
7.We think of you, but not too much in case we worry. Isn’t home good enough? It’s time you got stuck in and got your teeth into something. Other people do.
8.Jennifer pushed Mario down the stairs round the back. He lay there all night and wouldn’t go to the doctor. Netty had to clean up the blood.
9.Joe’s skin has mostly gone; we think it was viburnum.





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10.When are you going to go up north? Town’s alright, but you don’t do much. Aunty May keeps ringing up asking. It’s family. We ought to be able to say.
11.Grandad’s eating funny things, grey mushrooms nettles and stuff. He says they’re good for you, but no-one can tell the difference.
12.Helen came round the other day and told us what to do. Bart said ‘Yes, Prime Minister’.
13.The dog bit a market survey person at the door. She wanted to know what we watched. Julian said ‘The Weather’, but she didn’t have a chance to ask which one.
14.Grandad says you’re not making use of your time. You’ve got to come back, get a job, and raise enough to pay it.
15.There’s no use denying.
16.That’s the way of things, isn’t it. No matter what they do, it’s always the same.
17.Your cousin Jim’s helping with the wash now he’s lost his job at the bank; he says it’s the least he can do, and we think the same, considering.





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A COLLECTIVE TERM
FOR A NATURAL LIFE


At the end of March I attended a reunion at the Ch.Ch. Botanical Gardens. It was a gathering of the apprentices who were there in the 1950s. It was a delightful experience (though for me overshadowed by Anna's death) and this poem came from my attempts to find a collective name for the group.





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A Collective Term For A
Natural Life


Nothing matters
nothing else at all
now
but the past
so we meet
after fifty years of toil soil
and chlorophyll
to reminisce

gardeners all ––
Judy Peter Robert
Barry Graeme Ross Alison
Lynley Doreen Donald Chris
Lorelei and me
In a group
with drinks
and finger food
bound
by occupation
and experience
a Gathering of Gardeners?
(there are Packs of seeds
and Beds of bulbs)
a Bouquet, perhaps?
---too floral
a Graft?
---inimical
a Huddle of Horticulturists?
---verbose

Something oblique that packs a punch
and carries meaning with it —

a Mulch?





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WAITING FOR
THE C.E.O.


Earlier in the year Solid Energy wanted a publicity photo of me with its C.E.O. Don Elder, and I was asked to meet him after a staff meeting. A delay meant that I had to wait outside with his miners and mine-workers, many of whom regard me as a radical greeney trouble-maker.





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Waiting For The C.E.O.


He’s been delayed —
there’s trouble down south;
at Spring Creek there are questions,
so we wait,
I in my truck,
the miners at the car park over the road
where they lounge in their overalls
against the bonnets of their utes,
trying to make point to this pointless time,
talking small to pass it.

They’re here for his presentation:
‘Earning Our Right to Mine’.

‘Mining is a temporary use of the land,
but a permanent use of non-renewable resources’
.
they’re to be told,
before they excavate.

I’m here to be photographed with him,
I, who have written to the paper,
the government,
protested in the streets,
who have threatened their jobs,
they say;
I’m to be photographed with their boss.

We’re both uneasy,
I at their resentment,
they at my threat,
but in this we are one:
there’s the road between us
and we long to move on,
each to our work:
theirs at the mine,
mine at the inexpressible.





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CHANGING PLANES


This incident happened on my way back from Anna's funeral, early in March. I was at Wellington, filing onto the plane to Nelson, and I stepped aside to check on her cat, whom I was bringing home with me. At that moment the incident seemed quite normal, and it wasn't until I was seated in the plane that I realised it.





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Changing Planes

We wait in the annex
for the small plane to leave

the flight will be short

I read
for distraction
from the grief of the day
until the call comes to board

we walk in single file
curving round the tail wing
and then the baggage cart

Mine is there
and the cat
hers which I'm taking home

I stop to give it comfort

The intercom in the cabin speaks
of airport trivia
in a tinny voice

and then her voice
her restless soul in a living voice
two words of thanks
from my care
resonant from death
through this instrument of advice

She comes to mind —
her long cool self
her grace and wit
her savage end





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and as I board
I doubt the flight —
what from
where to in purpose?
can such an end
be ended?

She's taken lead
she whom I made
confined me in alien space
fixed by my love
cowed by her violence

The world is overwhelmed
axis and angle turned about

I'm her father no more
but her survivor





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AT A DoC DINNER


During the winter Carol and I were invited to a dinner in Westport, presented to farewell the senior DoC officer, who was leaving Buller. At its end, when thanks were given, the hunters were thanked for supplying the meat; this struck me as something I would not hear anywhere else.





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At A DoC Dinner

and
thanks to the Hunters

You took the trouble
to stalk for a day
in the Blackburn
(where Sticherus carpets
the forest floor)
for the pork
for the roast

Three days
you spent
three days in the rain
on the Thousand Acre Plateau
(where the Gentians bloom
at this time of the year)
for the goat
for the kebabs

And the day
you went
in time for the dawn
on Mt. William
hopping the rocks
(and the Chionochloa
that grows there)
for the hare
for the casserole

Two days
you tramped
two days in the frost
up the Four Mile
(where the Winter Rata’s red now)
for the deer
for the pie





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Your labour’s long
your skills are great

For these
and your provisions
we thank you

It is your giving
and our receiving





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SELLING DORIS


After yet another guest fell off my lavatory steps, I decided it was time to obtain an indoor flush toilet. If this was to be done without indebtedness, I had to sell something, so I decided to sell a painting. It was sold for $25,000, which also greatly lessened my mortgage.





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Selling Doris

Once mid-day's past
it's late afternoon,
in Christchurch
on a day like this,
of cold and mist.

I'm sad.
I'm selling Doris,
mine since '72,

one more parting
in a year of loss,
and the gallery's keen:

Doris Lusk (1916-1990)
Golden Hill, near Kurow
oil on Hardboard
600 x 825 mm
signed and dated lower right
inscribed verso — top right:
GOLDEN HILL, NEAR KUROW
Doris Lusk, Feb-March 1972
(Black Marker: Artist's Hand)

I'm selling for gain,
to pay the mortgage
and for an indoor loo,

unworthy,
perhaps,
but required,

I get comfort in my wilderness,
someone else gets art.

I'm sorry,
Doris,
I love you,
and you'll understand —

you grew old.





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HEAD DEATH
CYCLED ALONG


A poem I was reading — by the American poet Louis Zukofsky — so took my imagination that this play grew out of it. What it means doesn't much matter; it's written for the sound of the words.





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Head Death Cycled Along

one of those times
nothing after it
can be

it never is
though this is different
like if Beethoven had —

been whistling Mozart when —

this is crux
with life-change in it
nonchalant
on a cycle

death and romance
was was whistling when

along came terror





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AND LIKE THE
STARS


The glow-worms on the cliffs by my creek provoke comparison with the night sky; viewing them one night caused this run-away sequence of thoughts.





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And Like The Stars

They’re out

It’s a good season

There’s more this year
and they’re fat

You can tell by their light —
it’s warm

not like the glow-worms
in the creek below
which are neon in their firmament

You wonder where they breed —
in this galaxy
or somewhere prepared
out of space

Imagine it —
a nursery
for meteors moons and asteroids
a preparatory place
for planets
a park perhaps
for stars
and a sweet broad champagne
fenced
for copulating comets

Think of it





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HE WENT THERE
YAWNING


This is about a misadventure that put me into the local paper. It happened on a bright afternoon. I was bored, so I decided to cross the creek and fell a few of my poplar trees for firewood. A three hour power cut was the result.





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He went there yawning

It was a sunny day
but empty

I am a man
he thought
I do big things

So he took his saw
and went across the river
to the trees

to fell a tree

for firing
for the winter

He had wedges and ropes
and the axe as well
but the tree fell in the wind

It rolled as it fell
from top to top
and pivoted
to the wires

with smoke
and a hoot —
the predatory breath
of death

He was ashamed

He wanted to hide
then thought to himself —

It’s a foolish mistake
but a big one

Someone came running






© L. Kyle 2004

Further copies of this booklet may be obtained from: L. Kyle
P.O. Box 367
Westport, Buller.
lkyle@netaccess.co.nz